Sunday, April 13, 2014

Sunday Confessions: Lessons


Today's Sunday Confession prompt:
LESSONS

I've been struggling with what to write about lessons for over two hours.  Two hours of writing, deleting, writing, deleting.  Right now, it is 1:30 in the morning.  I am at a hotel 200 miles away from home.  I am surrounded by my siblings, my nephew and my mother.  I came here this weekend for my Grandma's internment.  

We finally laid Grandma to rest next to my Grandfather.  The man she had been married to for nearly 60 years when he died.  Their marriage, while not "perfect" from my outsider's standpoint, still leaves me in awe.  I can't stand myself most days, so 60 years with someone else is amazing to me. 

So here I sit with my nephew laying curled up at my side in his Super Mario Brothers bathrobe, listening to the gentle snores around me and I just keep thinking about everything that has happened this weekend. 

My concerns, stresses, anxieties, insecurities and basically my entire little freak out about seeing Bonehead for the first time in three years was completely unnecessary.  I was stressed for nothing.  He's wonderful and I'm lucky to have him in my life. 

My family doesn't get together and do too much like this anymore.  We all have so much going on, it isn't often that we all cram together and hang out, sleep together, ride around together.  It's really been a nice thing. 

When it comes to lessons, I'm sure life will keep on keeping on and I will keep learning them the hard way.  But right now...I'm pretty happy and content with the way things are going. 

I've been fighting so hard to learn the lessons I'm supposed to be learning, maybe I'm not taking enough time to just enjoy the things in life that just are.





4 comments:

  1. I'm so sorry for your loss. If you need to talk beyond blogging....you know how to find me.

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  2. So sorry for your loss. It is never easy. I am glad you were able to enjoy some time with your family and Bonehead. Life sure does have a habit of getting in the way of life...if that makes sense.

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  3. Sorry for your loss. It's weird how losing someone brings people closer. Suddenly, it makes us realize that we often worry about trivial things when we should be just focusing on being in the moment and appreciating what we have..especially the people that we have in our lives. Hope you're doing okay.

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  4. Sorry to hear about the loss of your grandmother, Cheesy....I come from a big family and it's weird how only "big" life events bring us together these days....weddings, funerals, births, graduations. Even the sad reasons to come home usually end up being a celebration of some kind because family is family....and deep down no matter how much changing and growing and maturing we've done....we're the same old knuckleheads we were when we were 10. haha. Glad you're always looking for ways to see the glass half full! Except wine- that glass should always be empty. Just sayin'!

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