Sunday, June 15, 2014

Sunday Confession: Temptation

This week's topic: 





I don't know about you but... I love the word Temptation.  When I hear the word temptation... I can't help but think of naughtiness and stolen kisses.

Clearly there isn't much going on in my world or my brain wouldn't be running in  chea, grocery store romance novel mode.  It's like a cheesy chick flick in there constantly lately.

My life is not without temptation right now.  Just not the intense, sexy sex kind I'm afraid.

I'm learning how to live independently again.  Obviously, I've been doing it for awhile however I didn't realize just how badly I'd gotten about money.  For a brief moment in time, I could afford to be frivolous with cash...and I was.  I never had that before, but unfortunately I had a relationship that was devoid of things like temptation and passion and I spent a lot of time spending money to make up for it.  Buying whatever I could to try and ease some of my dissatisfaction with it all.

Now that I'm responsible for all of the bills again, I'm struggling not to buy whatever I want when I want to, pay the bills first, and focus on my goals.  Every day is a temptation not to buy dinner on the way home, not buy that nail polish that I don't really need, read the flyer and shop the sales versus buying whatever I want for dinner no matter the price.  It's hard.

I'm trying to bring sexy back.  But there is constant temptation to eat ALL THE THINGS and it just never stops.  I wish I could find some way to make exercise tempting and sexy.

I miss Bonehead.  Every weekend I fight the temptation to go see him.  To rock out in the car to the music that touches my soul, sing out at the top of my lungs as I drive and then get to spend time with him just being me in a more honest way than I can be with most people.

2014 began with me believing that this year was going to be a year of growth for me.  I convinced myself of it.  I spent so much of the first part of the year distracting myself with other people and their issues that I haven't really been focusing on myself and I continue to be tempted to do so every day.  As a result of that, I've been tempted to turn off all connections to the outside world.

Temptation.... it is an every day thing, but I'm starting to wish it was more of the Harlequin romance variety.

1 comment:

  1. Temptation is a bitch. Good for you for refocusing your energy on yourself.

    2014 can still be your year :-)