Sunday, August 24, 2014

Denial

This Week's prompt:
DENIAL

I've got a problem with denial.

As in... I go about it all wrong. 

I deny that I have a problem.   That I need help dealing with something.  That something... a person, idea, or thing... might just be exactly what it is as face value.  I live in denial of people, relationships and situations I've outgrown...choosing to keep holding on to things that make me miserable. 


Where does one purchase an ACCESS DENIED stamp?  

Sometimes I think I willingly let people, opinions and ideas into my life, my space and my head that should be denied access at the door.  Deemed "Access Denied" and there is no appeal process.  

The older I get the more I'm finding just how important and good my intuition is and just how much I need to trust and use it.  I think we've all been born with a good amount of gut feelings, we just spend so much time pushing them down and ignoring them to pay attention to what we've been born with as a means to survive.

The older I get... the more important I'm finding it is to just embrace myself and all that I am and quit denying myself good things because other people don't share that opinion, or think it is right, or think it is what I want, need or deserve.  I'm in denial of the fact that the things I don't love about myself might be something someone else loves about me.

Funny thing about denial...as much as we associate it with bad things, perhaps it is how we're applying it.  Something tells me if I spend more time denying things that make me unhappy and stop denying things that just might... I'm going to get a lot farther.

Time to stop hiding the things I don't like about myself inside myself



6 comments:

  1. Love this post! It is so important to be true to ourselves.

    It is hard to accept those parts of ourselves that we think are unlovable or unworthy but they are just as important as every other aspect of ourselves and like you said-you never know who will love us for those parts!

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  2. Great blog Ash! I too want to find an Access Denied stamp and stamp it to my forehead. Thank you for sharing your honesty and vulnerability. Each blog I read of yours makes me get to know you better. And if fate ever gives us a chance to meet I'm buying you a beer. Well many of them. 😉

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  3. GREAT post- I think maybe of us struggle with this, especially the part about denying the bad things! Thanks for sharing!

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  4. Ah yes, the song we both can't stop listening to!

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  5. You should definitely ALWAYS trust your gut. Great post and how exciting to have SO MANY link-ups this week! Thanks for stopping by and linking with #BlogDiggity this week! Hope to see you again next week!

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