Sunday, November 2, 2014

Sunday Confession: Solid

This week's prompt:
Solid

As a general rule, I don't see things in black and white. 

It is both a blessing and a curse.  It allows me to accept people with scars, people who have made mistakes, people who known and done some terrible and ugly things.  It has given me some of the best moments of my entire life from the worst people.  

It has shown me that all that glitters is not gold.  It has taught me that monsters do in fact walk in the daylight.  It has shown me that sometimes nothing is what it should be. 

While this makes me the type of person who can see everyone as an individual and judge them on an individual basis, I think it makes ME questionable for all of the things I'm not "against" as a general rule because I can usually see a situation where it is acceptable.  

Sometimes I wish I could be more like the kind of person who decided their position on something and stays it, no matter what.  There are very few things I can make a solid, hard statement about because I can't find a way where it would ever be acceptable.  I feel like this makes people see me as more fluid and not a solid person when it comes to things I do disagree about.  Maybe people see me as wishy-washy and less of the kind of person with a solid, reliable opinion and belief system that I hold myself accountable to.

Maybe that is why I have such a lack of solidity in my life.  Because I don't play by the same rigid and required rules.

2 comments:

  1. That was originally what i was going to write about when i first started thinking about what Solid meant to me. I see myself the same way, I'm horrible at making solid decisions right off the bat, i can't see just one side or the other as correct & the other wrong, & i can find exceptions to everything supposedly set in stone. Then the word stone got stuck in my head & something about the solidity of my marriage came tumbling out instead. It's good to be fluid, we are way more adaptable & able to bring the different sides of the fence together with new understanding. Continue to keep on rocking the awesomeness that is you!

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  2. You keep rocking your strong, independent, solid, self. Life doesn't have to always be played by the rules. If you're loving, kind, and compassionate to me that's a solid human being. You have been a solid and safe place for me to express myself, be heard, be read, and understood. And for that Ash I'm very grateful. 😊💓

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