Wednesday, April 2, 2014

What If Wednesday: What If I Never Met You?

Today's Topic: What If...I never met you?

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MoreThanCheeseandBeer

What if I had never met you?

What if I hadn't taken the initiative to message you?

What if you hadn't been who you are, where you're from, where you're at?

Do you ever wonder that?  

I don't consciously appreciate you as much as I should; I'm big enough, or terrible enough, to be able to admit that.  Truth be told, I can't imagine my life without you because I totally take you for granted and just assume that you will always be here even though I know better.  It's not that we haven't been apart, but I've always known that in those times when we weren't talking that I could have reached out at any given time and you might have held me accountable for not being in touch, but you still would have been there no matter what.  And somehow, we always just seem to fall back into stride with each other like we never stopped walking the same path.

I know that you love me more than I've ever loved you.  And as terrible as it sounds, it's a good thing because if I loved you as much as you love me nothing would ever get done.  I tell you everything.  You know how I am and how I "work" better than anyone.  Sometimes, I think you can see right through me.

I don't know that you've changed my life.  So much has happened in my life since you and I met, and I don't know that the changes necessarily had anything to do with you.  I don't think you brought about any of my changes in the last few years but I think you, in your way, eased the transition for me. 

Looking back, I don't know what my life would have been like all these years without you.  I think there would have been more confusion.  I would have learned more lessons the hard way without you there to talk it over with me, letting me struggle the way I have to in order to learn while quietly supporting me.  There are times where your presence has been so huge to me, that I don't know if I would have survived without you.

I don't know what life would be like if I had never met you, but I'm glad I don't know.