Sunday, September 7, 2014

Regret

This week's prompt:
Regret

I've written about regret before.  

It isn't a new confession topic. 

We tackled it at the beginning of the year... in the first post after New Years.

And I'm glad we did because I can look back on it now.

Back in January, I posed the question:

If you don't really love yourself, how can you say you have no regrets because they made you who you are?  

I was dealing with a lot of complex things in January.  Hell, I'm STILL dealing with a lot of those complex things.  I think regret can come from a lot of places, but I notice when I feel personally feel regret it is usually a symptom of a larger problem.

There was so much I was mad at myself for, but since January I've noticed the weight of my regrets getting lighter and lighter.  It isn't that I just magically quit feeling that way...it is conscious decision, but it amazes me how good it feels.

The truth is that I was having regrets because I hadn't started forgiving myself yet.  And now I've started doing just that and I feel so much better.

Hopefully, I'll get to a point where I don't have any of those regrets anymore.