Sunday, November 2, 2014

Sunday Confession: Solid

This week's prompt:
Solid

As a general rule, I don't see things in black and white. 

It is both a blessing and a curse.  It allows me to accept people with scars, people who have made mistakes, people who known and done some terrible and ugly things.  It has given me some of the best moments of my entire life from the worst people.  

It has shown me that all that glitters is not gold.  It has taught me that monsters do in fact walk in the daylight.  It has shown me that sometimes nothing is what it should be. 

While this makes me the type of person who can see everyone as an individual and judge them on an individual basis, I think it makes ME questionable for all of the things I'm not "against" as a general rule because I can usually see a situation where it is acceptable.  

Sometimes I wish I could be more like the kind of person who decided their position on something and stays it, no matter what.  There are very few things I can make a solid, hard statement about because I can't find a way where it would ever be acceptable.  I feel like this makes people see me as more fluid and not a solid person when it comes to things I do disagree about.  Maybe people see me as wishy-washy and less of the kind of person with a solid, reliable opinion and belief system that I hold myself accountable to.

Maybe that is why I have such a lack of solidity in my life.  Because I don't play by the same rigid and required rules.